i’m so sorry to everyone.
to myself especially.
i’ms orry for letting you get so fucked up from the very beginning. because you know it was all my fault right? from the very beginning? when was the beginning, i don’t remember but your depression-it’s always been my fault. these crazy mood swings, those moments when you just feel like throwing yourself headfirst off a building-? i’m sorry. i’m so sorry, it’s all been my fault.
because i broke you from the beginning. i made you feel worthless and now you believe it and that’s what you are with these ugly scars and ugly insides and ugly personality and ugly ugly fucking black soul. you thought you could control your life but you can’t, you’re so fucking alone and you’re left typing, sobbing with tears fucking everywhere and your leg you dont’ even care, it’s just one more scar you won’t remember in the morning, and i lvoved and hurt so many people and i just wanted to find love and purpose and i lost that so long ago and now i’m all alone and left typing this sad letter to myself, to no one because nobody cares and you don’t care you just want to sleep forever and i’m sorry because that’s not your fault it’s all mine and i love you, i love you, pelase love yourself because i’ve been here, i’m here and everyone who leaves you it’s okay, baby, i’m here. i lovey ou.